Will you name me,
before I can name myself?
Will you see my skin
and name me a color,
as if that defined me?
As if pigment is a thing
at all.
Will you see my sex,
my breasts that swell with milk,
and desire, and righteous indignation,
as if a mere body part
or two can claim the whole of me?
Will you find my name in my faith -
or what you think of as my faith?
Will you shackle me
and shame me,
blame me for what you
think you know?
My name is in my skin,
in its cracks and rough-edged
wrinkles, earned honestly
in the measure of my days,
It's in my sex,
in my womb that opened
and my breasts that fed
in my body that cradled life.
It's in my hands that reach
higher than I could ever grasp,
and my eyes that see
beauty in the chaos of a storm.
My name is in me,
in my back that is bent,
and my knees that don't
yet still they bear the
weight of all my days.
My name is in my faith
even as I wrestle
with the angels
who still climb their ladders,
and wrestle with me.
I feel it, the name that I
call myself, that I claim
for myself. It dances
along my skin, and fills me
completely.
Would you name me?
I have my own name,
I don't need yours.
I write, mostly to keep my head from exploding. It threatens to do that a lot. My blog is the pixelated version of all the voices in my head. I tend to dive into what connects me to God, my community, my family and my doubt. I do a lot of searching, not as much finding. I’m good with that. I have learned, finally, to live comfortably in the gray. I n the meantime, I wrestle with God, and my doubt and my joy. If nothing else, I've learned to make a mean cup of coffee.
Monday, December 12, 2016
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